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I'm going UTAR for actuarial science !

If i ask you what do ya think about UTAR , 

you would probably say 'cheap'

yeahhh same with what i'm thinking lol !

UTAR's reputation is questionable ever since i know about this school

With reason - i don't know why .

I didn't like UTAR due to this .__.

After doing some researches, engineering course in Kampar is actually quite marketable

as in developers like SP Setia do send their sponsored students to there ( working bond attached of course )

And im imagining UTAR setapak as a kampung now =_=

As some of my friends who are doing their courses there asked me not to expect too much

it's nothing like INTI or Taylor's and i was like....okay..

Anyway i'm going to do actuarial science there ! 

Oh why right. I was randomly searching on website and i saw this course

( note that there's only 2 priv/semi are offering this course. Anyway i didn't know UCSI got until i applied UTAR lol. too new for ucsi )

then i told my mom ,

' mommy, i go do actuarial science okay ?'

" great great great ! wo jiu shuang shou shuang jiao agree !"

then she started to clap both of her hands and legs on bed =__=

Anyway ,
there will be no more princess life there.

so sad :(

Let's hope i will meet some cool people like chanel, farren and michelle meow again
Or some besties like what i am having now.


Love ya
i'm worried too.

Sad

Guys' shirt :P

Weiwei , do you really want actuarial science ?
Environmental technolgy in Segi still kinda..attractive.
Environmental engineering too.

:(

My 'hahaha' doesn't mean that i'm happy.
Pretending pretending, i sibeh fake.

Heroes

taken by cicak 

I don't know if the photographer was meant to take it this way
but i do feel something when i see this picture.

It's obviously Danbo is in the sink

But but , at first glance , i thought of it asking for a hug when it's in trouble !

Or i'm thinking too much. Haha.
Anyway , we do need help all the time
Nobody is ever independent enough.
Don't you think so ?

Everybody has a Hero in it . kinda subjective for ya to see it .

Daddy is a Hero . Mommy too a superwoman.
I love them so much that ... i will have to give up what i want .

Many of you must be wondering why did i choose actuarial science out of nowhere.
I, too, quite surprise of myself.

Living 2.

Not to live for the day, that would be materialistic -- but to treasure the day. I realize that most of us live on the skin -- on the surface -- without appreciating just how wonderful it is simply to be alive at all.
-- Audrey Hepburn

Breath

I'm a joker

Another thoughtful moment at late night .
I'm seriously not a morning person. Haha.

About living .

Seriously, everybody has different thought about living in this world .
Some people think that living is a pain and wanna end it all the time
Some people think that they do not find the purpose for life
Some people think that their life is meaningless and pure sorrow
Such pessimistic people do deserve a slap from me.
Yes i do wanna slap them .

In hospital , i see life ends .
I see the animals are struggling for a breathe.
I witnessed the painful moment of trying to breathe until the death knocks the door.
Yes you think this is silly ? Then you do not how to respect LIFE.

Let's talk about humans then.
On youtube, you see people in Africa are dying
Why don't you try to google
"how many children die today"
Please be surprised with the stats : Today : 21,000 children
Do you think that these 21k children wanted to leave this world ?

Did you ever realize that when you can breathe , it is already a bless?
when you have people whom you love / love you around , you're already very lucky?

Oh yes godamn it. you still hate your life ?
Do ya love your parents? your friends? your family?
Shall i elaborate what will be happening to them if they lose you ?

Not every person who leaves home in the morning can come home alive.

WHYYY. Why people will ever wanna end their lives
A silly mistake / a painful moment etc.
Brain is inside your head. CONTROL IT .

Everyday, 100 Japanese commits suicide.
Teens suicide rate too increasing.

Life is too fucking me hard.
So hard that i couldn't tell anyone
i could tell no one even my best friend !!
Yet i still consider myself lucky.
Because i'm still a healthy bitch who has daddy mommy kor kor family and friends !

What i think about my life ?

I'm worried that i will have no enough time for my family
Not enough time to provide papa mama a good life
Not enough time to achieve my goals.

I will cherish whatever is given to me.
If you don't , LEARN IT TODAY !!


#inspired.

Awesomeness dies hard

Ding tea !

Another girls'outing with Sally Ang .
She's the one who shops with me the most haha

We had lunch in our old place - Old town kopitiam City Square
She got a new skirt and i got two masks and hair serum.
Cotton on is still expensive so this time we have had nothing back !

I was finding a pair of shoes. All out of my budget. :(
Sometime i really don't understand why those non-branded shoes are selling at the almost same price with branded shoes !
But gotta admit that they look better than the brown dull comfort wears.
Haha.

Anyway, one thing interesting about Sally is..
Her elder sister, younger brother and younger sister are all hating guys talk to sally but than peeza.
they are so cute lol.

That's end the day! We had ding tea in jusco :D

I was kinda pissed off just now.
I got no key for my condo !
So all the plan is canceled for the weekend.

i was really gotta scold the person edy and i...tahan.
then i found out it wasn't her fault also.

Anyway....

My temper is really changing. lol.

Niceee!

一個很準的心理測試:

嗨，這個測試很準的哦，來試試看。
請拿出一張紙一支筆把你的答案寫下來，結論就在後面。
你在森林的深處，你向前走，看見前面有一座很舊的小屋。

1.這個小屋的門現在是什麼狀態？
（開著/關著）

2.你走進屋子裡看見一張桌子 這個桌子是什麼形狀的？
（圓形/橢圓形/正方形/長方形/三角形）

3.在桌子上有個花瓶，瓶子裡有水，有多少水在花瓶裡？
（滿的/一半/空的）

4.這個瓶子是由什麼材料製造的？
（玻璃/陶瓷/泥土）（金屬/塑料/木頭）

5.你走出屋子，繼續向森林深處前進，你看見遠處有瀑布飛流直下，請問水流的速度是多少？
（你可以從0—10任意選一個）

6.過了一會，你走過瀑布，你站在堅硬的地面上，你看見地上有金光閃爍，你彎腰拾起來，是一個帶著鑰匙的鑰匙鏈。有多少把鑰匙拴在上面，你可以任意選一個數字?
（從1到10）

7.你繼續向前走，試著找出一條路來，突然你發現眼前有一座城堡。這個城堡是什麼樣的？
（舊的/新的）

8.你走進城堡，看見一個游泳池，黑暗的水面上飄浮著很多閃閃發光的寶石，你會撿起這些寶石嗎？ （是/不）

9.在這個黑暗的游泳池旁邊還有一座游泳池。清澈的水面上飄浮著很多枚錢幣。你會撿起這些錢幣嗎？
（是/不）

10.你走到城堡的盡頭有一個出口，你繼續向前走走出了城堡。在城堡外面，你看見一座大花園，你看見地面上有一個箱子。這個箱子是多大尺寸的？
（小/中/大）

11.這個箱子是什麼材料做的？
（硬紙板/紙/木頭/金屬）

12.花園裡還有一座橋就在離著箱子的不遠處。橋是什麼材料建造的？
（金屬/木頭/藤條）

13.走過這座橋，有一匹馬。馬是什麼顏色的？
（白色/灰色/褐色/黑色）

14.馬正在做什麼？ （安靜地站著/在附近奔跑）

15.哦，不！離馬很近的地方突然刮起了一陣龍捲風。
你三種選擇。
（1） 跑過去藏在箱子裡？
（2） 跑過去藏在橋底下？
（3） 跑過去騎馬離開？












My answers are in red :)


下面就是分析結論：
(1) 門：
門如果是開著的：說明你是一個任何事都願與別人分享的人
門如果是關著的：說明你是一個任何事都願一個人去做的人

(2)桌子的形狀：

圓形/橢圓形：—總有一些朋友陪伴著你，你完全地信任並接受他們。
正方形/長方形：—你在交朋友的時候有點挑剔，你只是和那些你認為比較熟悉的朋友有一些來往。
三角形：—在對待朋友的問題上，你是一個真正的非常吹毛求疵的人，所以你的生活裏沒有許多朋友。

(3) 瓶子裏的水：
空的: 你目前的生活很不滿意。
一半: 你的生活只有一半達到你的理想。
滿的: 你對目前的生活非常滿意。

(4) 瓶子的質地：
玻璃/泥土/陶瓷: 在生活裏你是一個脆弱而需要得到照顧的人。
金屬/塑料/木頭: 你在生活裏是一個強者。

(5) 水流速度：
0: 你根本沒有性欲
1— 4: 你的性欲很低
5: 中等水平的性欲
6— 9: 很強的性欲
10: 哇噻！你有超強的性欲，生活裏沒有性根本不行。( i'm still a virgin k =_=)

(6)鑰匙：
1：生活中你只有一個好朋友。
2— 5：生活中你有一些好朋友。
6—10：生活中你有許多好朋友。　　

(7) 城堡：
舊的：顯示你在過去的交往中有一段不好的和不值得紀念的關系。
新的：顯示你在過去的交往中有一段很好的交往現在仍然鮮活的駐留在你心裏。　

(8)從臟水的遊泳池裏撿寶石：
是：當你的伴侶在你身邊時，你依然和周圍的人調情。
不：當你的伴侶在你身邊裏，你絕大多數時間只會圍著他/她轉。

(9)從清澈的遊泳池裏撿錢幣：
是：當你的伴侶不在你身邊，你會和周圍的人調情。
不：當你的伴侶不在你身邊，你也會忠實於他/她，不和周圍的人調情。

(10) 箱子的大小：
小：不自負
中等：比較自負
大：非常自負

(11)箱子的材料（從表面看）：
硬紙/紙/木頭（不閃光）：謙虛的性格
金屬：驕傲而頑固的性格

(12)橋的材料：
金屬：和朋友有非常緊密的聯系
木頭：和朋友有比較緊密的聯系
藤條：周圍沒有很好的朋友

(13) 馬的顏色：
白色：你的伴侶在你心目中非常純潔而美好。
灰色/褐色：你的伴侶在你心目中的位置一般。
黑色：你的伴侶在你心目中好像根本不怎麽樣，甚至還很壞。

(14) 馬的動作：
安靜/吃草：你的伴侶是一個顧家的，謙虛的人。
在附近奔跑：你的伴侶是一個非常狂野的人。

(15) 這是最後一個問題但也是最重要的問題。對了，故事的結尾是一陣龍卷風，
你怎麽去做呢？這裏提供了三種選擇：
(i) 跑過去藏在箱子裏面？
(ii) 跑過去藏在橋下面？
(iii) 跑過去騎上馬走？
那麽什麽是你的選擇呢？

現在，我們看看上面的這些事物代表的是什麽：
龍卷風：你生活中的麻煩
箱子：你自己
橋：你的朋友
馬：你的伴侶

那麽答案就是：
（i）如果你選擇箱子，你無論何時遇到麻煩你都會自己解決。
（ii）或者你選擇橋，無論何時你遇到麻煩你都有將去找你的朋友一起解決。
（iii）又或者你選擇的最後一個馬，你尋找的伴侶是你無論何時遇到麻煩都要和他/她一起去面對。

=__=

As usual ,
I feel stupid for feeling angry

Even kindness might not be appreciated all time
i'm still not letting myself to be a selfish baddie !

Smileeee ,
everything will be fine :D

i'm still young
there'll be still a lot of people out there to provoke me
to make me angry
to hurt me
intentionally or unintentionally

I shall learn how to deal with all
and not being angry at a side
Who cares ?

So different from the last post. haha
anyway i'm still a human right.

a girl somemore ;P


anyway,

Queen says : trivial matter doesn't worth your attention . Pasts are over , so let them over !

Similarity is nothing .

I hate it

genting

I'm really pissed . Of what ?

I saw a friend has been overly sad on facebook for long .
He has just been listed as my favourite friend !
Although we're not close , i still try to cheer the friend up ( Not often but anyways...tried )

I was trying to have a bet with him

'If he can stop emo-ing for 1 month , i will pos laju a present for him "

Yeaps because he once tagged me in a online shop's picha
He seems pretty liking the stuff so i believe it would be good.

Then for me to tell , he used

'im going off soon , tell la , 5 4 3 2 1 0 good night''

I hate this and i hate this and i hate this !
I don't like the counting down thingy seriously !!

If you think this is a funny reason to get angry with, i will tell ya why !
Because all the lousy memoirs surges back !!

yes i don't get angry easily but i do take things i hate bloody serious

Ohhh Fuck .

Merry go round goes round :D

merry-go-round

Loggin on Twitter to start a new account as i seriously have forgotten the old existence
Then , to my awkward surprise , i saw my old profile with last tweet on 2009
With a dumbo picture that makes me seriously felt like digging a hole for myself lol .

How many days have passed since the year of 2009 ?
2009 might not be the greatest year, but it was my happiest year to have him around
I saw him on twitter just now and it was just.....right i'm at the loss of words
We're not friends. We're not.
Forever i wouldn't know, what did i do to make him detest me to this stage

taken by Chris Yong the monkey

Suddenly came to my senses :

Oh i'm gotta study Actuarial Science in UTAR this coming weekend !

this is weird . haha

For the past two years i thought i would become an engineer.

Some time ago, people told me that they do envy me.

For reasons i have forgotten.

Now i wonder, is the personality of weiwei still there ?

People would say ,

'You're WEIWEI mah.."

" This is so not you'

Did i change?

I don't know. I think i did.

I still hate myself for being a kid.

But i, too, see others who're way older than me are behaving like the old me.

yet they still think that i'm a kiddo .__.

life's weird. 

Anyway, i shall not care what others think about me

and continue to be myself.

in which the 'myself' might not be the one you know .

:)

Just wait ! I do get disappointments all the time but..
it always ends up something better
Even it doesn't ,
you must have learnt something.

Audrey Hepburn

Anyway, i still gotta be happy

The sexiest curve of a woman is her smile :)

Audrey Hepburn

How shall I sum up my life? I think I've been particularly lucky. Does that have something to do with faith also? I know my mother always used to say, 'Good things aren't supposed to just fall in your lap. God is very generous, but he expects you to do your part first.' So you have to make that effort. But at the end of a bad time or a huge effort, I've always had - how shall I say it? - the prize at the end. My whole life shows that. 

-- Audrey Hepburn

To make you feel my love

Old picha rabbbbbit

(Favourite parts of the favourite song )

When the rain is blowing in your face
and the whole world is on your case
i can offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love

when the evening shadows and the stars appear
and there's no one there to dry your tears
i can hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I'd hungry i'd go black and blue
I go crawling down the avenue
No there's nothing i wouldn't do
To make you feel my love .

I could make you happy make you dreams come true
Nothing that i wouldn't do
Go to the end of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love .

Anything

Cute right awwwww :3

Seriously , getting over pasts is easier said than done.
Sometimes , the present is so suffering that we often lose myself

My goal of the year is to be a happy girl no matter what happens
When you're over , you find that getting over isn't that hard
all you have to do is to give time some time
It's hard at the hurtful moment
But soon , we will forget the pain .


Nerd joke to share :P

when you like/love someone , you will have him/her all over your head all the time .
I do not like the feeling .
I used to enjoy to have someone in my mind , or to be in someone's mind
However , i do not like it now.
It's distracting .
And when you have to break , the feeling will be getting from bad to worse.

I think i'm so gotta be #forever alone .___.

I don't have time for anything .

or ,

i don't have guts to accept anything .

or,

I don't even want to fight for what i want ( it can be anything )



However,i'm really enjoying to have no one in mind now.
Especially when i see others are suffering . *evil

Stronger

At PJ .

Love ya but I cannot lose .

I am moving on , however , sometimes , some songs do bring me back to the pasts
Sweet pasts , hurtful moments and so on .
Yeap That's when i love you by Aslyn ( Play list at your right ) is one of them .

Frankly , i wonder who can love me for who i am apart from my family
I do envy single people when i'm attached
Now , i am wondering who in the Earth will like me for who am i

I met a boy who truly loved me
When i was still a childish kiddie , he accepted all my bad points
I lost him . I do not dwell about it all the time but yeah
i can't forget .

Not too much of feeling inferior, anyway i do dislike myself
Some people would say ,
'' How ya expect one to love you when you don't love yourself first ? "

Sleepless

I'm such a kid , no ?
I'm a rock at the mind and candy floss in the heart
Stubborn stubborn and i can't be more stubborn
I know i start giving in already and i wonder how long it could last .

Yes my heart is weak
So weak that a word or two might accidentally kill me
it's too weak to any nice effort

There were guys who liked me ( Yes besties, u r Surpriseeed )
And i often wondered why
Unlike most of the girls who will indulged in the feeling of being pampered
I ran , Lol
I wonder if this was because the last real real fail relationship.

genting

Some girls take initiatives going after the boys they like
some succeed , some fail
When i was in form 2 i confessed to a guy haha
( I don't know if it counts)
too kiddie , influenced by Taiwan drama maybe

Now , undoubtedly i die die also won't go for a guy

ugly right . Hahahahahahaha

Most of the people who know me will think that i'm a very cool person
Most of the people who know me a little more would think that i'm weird
Some people love my characteristic for being so ganas in fighting what i want
Some people like me because i don't gossip
And for some unknown reason i'm always in the gossip / people's topic

PJ

I think i might have a crush . haha .

i learnt something again

Now i understand why did my brother afraid to go to UK for his degree courses.
Too much of 'HOW IF' , no?

Crying deep

Sad princess 

I'm sort of crying .

I was trying to get to sleep. It's too heavy for the me now , now ?

Here is a story .

There was a girl who was born into this world with a silver spoon. She had a wonderful family.
She went to a lot of places when she was small , a family trip of course !
If she ever wanted a new barbie, daddy would buy one .
If she ever wanted a new set of LEGO, daddy also got her one.
Mommy will too , got her whatever she ever wanted.
The elder brothers would get her sweets or tit bits if she was crying.
Daddy was a contractor , he had a lot of workers who would come to her house and taught her how to play some simple games .
Daddy's younger brother sometimes would take a nap in brother's room and she would just place all those mini troopers on his body !

Now she is a grown up.
She has never gone to family trip again.
Reunion dinner seems unapproachable.
Daddy's younger brother left daddy's company.
Daddy have lost a lot of business to the brother.
Daddy's business is not so good as before.
then no more trips.
no more family days.
no more u-want-what-daddy-gives-u-what-days.

Big bro has his own problems to settle. Second bro is still undependable.
The girl needs to get everything settled by herself.
She needs to get a course, a school, fees paid, accommodation all by herself.
She doesn't know what she wants.
She's lost and nobody could help.
Nobody has time to care for this little girl.


Then she's gone too soon.
she felt so regretted for her life.

so much so that..
she can't take it anymore.

Player

Yes this is how zombie-ish i look for this hols

I'm bored.
I will have some evil thoughts . No good.

Thank god i am quite a good girl.
Good girls know almost no bad guys these days.

Or i might become someone like my ex. Haha.
Flirting is normal , i do feel like flirting sometimes but..
it's still better to stay obedient.

Or i am becoming my ex.
And luckily i'm not pretty.
Haha.*awkward*

Although sometimes , i do feel like...
'' can i play once ...?like how he did to me ''

Hahaha.. Not gonna make the evil cycle continue.

" being able to think and not doing what you're thinking is what differentiating us from beasts"

loves.

Insecure

I'm afraid .

I have this 'luck' of having awesome people around. No matter where i go , i have friends to help me.

When i had to apply for scholarships during form 5, my friend helped me to print whatever documents /
lend me their internet to apply when my modem was down .

My friends' mom even helped me to cut out all those school advertisements for me.

I rejected Taylors' and went to INTI alone.
I had a childhood friend who taught me where to eat and how to get home from Nilai

Then i met awesome classmates who always brought me out to makan
Funniest thing was , they always asked me what to eat , and i always answered MCD.
Even if i was tired and not gonna join them for a meal, they used MCD as baits and never failed to make me go.

Then i have LEOs who lifted me when i was down
Although not all of them came to help when i was down , sometimes i was even in their 'gossips' ,
they still helped me when i needed anything.
And also because of LEO , i met a girl who listened to me , a zombie who could accompany me to supper no matter how late it was , a mama who always let me a place to stay and took care of me, a bestie who always brought me out when i needed some fresh air and scolded some assholes together with me ( your bf too, kns sometimes,but still helped me everytime i needed help ) and also a 'blockmate' who helped me in everything .

I can't list out all of them. But seriously Thank You. Even a cheer up / I like you as my emo statuses' comment does cheer me up , a lot.

Not to mention all those besties in Subang.

You guys...are really awesome.


I'm so afraid. Now i'm going a new campus alone. Although there too, i have a junior and 2 Seniors , i'm still afraid . This 'luck' can you please don't go ?


I think i forgot how to survive. Anyway,

I must be Okay. i have no choice, no ?