:)

有时不敢看到一个人  是因为怕看到他/她心会痛   再受伤
再多的对不起   好像都没用
我现在才明白你说的 ‘需要时间’

很爱过怎么忍心残忍
当真正残忍的时候 表示不敢爱了  怕了 痛了
有时残忍也是一种仁慈

我们有过的过去 谁也没有办法代替
随便找个人陪  想着的还是你
不痛  可是会比较
你好像比较成熟理智之类的
然后感觉都不对

就算现在我已经不爱你了  甚至很讨厌你
我还是忘不了你
忘不了我们有过的曾经

你告诉过我你会那么快有下一段感情
结果却按耐不住寂寞
很快追到另一个然后在一起

认识你那么久 一看就知道她不是你想要的type
可是 可能有时候 这样的感情会比较长久
不会一开始就很爱很爱
也不会有越来越高的expectation

我们就是在expectation这里game over

没了就没了


想念你并不代表还爱你

直到对的人出现 我不会再谈恋爱

我也堕落过了
喝酒 颓废 睡一整天 很多很多

每一段感情分手时就好像死掉一样
我放不下

既然放不下 希望下一个男友  我不必放下
:))

He is an asshole.

Earth Hour

How could i forget to blog about Earth Hour ?

KLCC was turning off the light that day
Whooh i joined the count down @ the concert !
( Only for counting down :P)

3 , 2 ,1  LIGHTS OFF !!!

I screamed :P

All the buildings around KLCC was lights off too !

KL Tower too !

Awesome wey hahahaha

Taking picha for my Leo Club Page :P

Please Like our page @

Leo Club of Kuala Lumpur Central on fb !

xD

Ben's !!

Candle light dinner with Ninja !

We were so cheapskate !!

Pens from Kinokuniya

we didn't buy :P

merely ''test" the ink color lalala

Ninja is ninja /_\

SS as everrr

Oh then we went out to the concert to meet Etara ( from INTI )

i wanted to go Zouk with him but i didn't go :P

While waiting for him

i saw Mizz Nina 

haha

After we talked awhile

2ne1 was performing

( I didn't know who are them too...seriously not a fan of Kpop)

Then i went home

Michelle was there ( LRT station waiting for me) already !

We went Studio89

The waiter recognized me and knew what i wanted already

just..double shot that day !

lol

chilling a bit then we makan at pelita

home and slept and uhmm

next day was hectic

Event day

blogging soon once i got the photo

see ya ! ;))

去年我們曾牽手走過很多地方，在車站擁抱，一起看電影，往彼此的嘴巴里塞零食和飲料，一起幻想明年的這個時候，甚至是很多很多年以後，我們在幹嘛，要幹嘛。

可是感情的脆弱我們誰也想不到。

這一秒幸福，下一秒就可以崩潰。

戀情，崩盤起來，往往太措手不及。

再多的甜言蜜語，累積起來也敵不過分手兩個字。

世界上有太多的悲哀。

曾經多麼驕傲的要一起幸福一輩子，到頭來卻剩下自己。

TONG TONG QIANG

Talking about Karma,

this was coming back too fast.

Returning Banana with all coins , 

He then used it to pay for the drink

then i gave RM10 for the drink and all the changes were coming back to me

omg.

lol

Then i talked about John about uhmm

He borrowed RM20 from me and returned me all 20 and 10 cents !!

for RM20 !!

Then he came on the night itself

damn

KAWAII TUESDAY

And i was called fei po the whole night

=.=

I really cannot tahan my fringe already

i wanted to keep it long uhmm so...

this is the picture i didn upload last time

:P

My makan mates all balik kampung already

I jio Ninja for dinner and we were really sporting 

Went KLCC after dinner straight !

And this idea was produced in a life

haha

Ninja is pretty but wanna be boyish !

i wanna see her with long hair !

I saw gong cha and i remembered i hurt this guy before 

I am sorry

:(

Awesome , no?

hehe

10.00pm @ Samsung @_@

so many people love stars ? :PP

(galaxy)

inside LRT

OH and

i helped my housemate to cook ABC soup

ever since he left,

i have never stepped into the kitchen to cook anymore

used to cook soup/ veggies/chicken for him too

 ( although spaghetti were more often hahahah)

I am not hurt anymore

oh yeahh babe <3

Missing you doesn't mean that i am still loving you 

:D

Hippie !

I am Happy !!! xD

I went to PV128 for a hairdresser but IT WAS CLOSING !

i really buey tahan my hair already

So i took a scissors,

and cut my hair by myself ;PP

Then i jadi banyak high !!

Whooh !

I was so damn bu she de to cut the hair one..

I finally made up my mind to cut whooh

Hair can be grown back

Boyfriend can also be found again! 

（lol emo queen , 2013 :P )

She said i look like a pup here /_\

Life is beautiful if you see it that way.

Met advisor today

There's a system in UTAR that you will have to meet your academic advisor every semester and...judging from my past performance and current results , this is the summary of what my advisor has said.....

" There's something in you , but you do not know what and you're quite lost. Don't make yourself to be like this , this means that you do not love yourself. If you are unable to find the problem and solve it, the situation will only become worse and not going to go any better. Meet a counselor .. ” 

I promise,

I will be better.

Rubbish post xD

Look at what i have done to Wee Sheng's pou

#Proud die #Master piece 

>__<

Went for Dance club's dance practice lolololol

I am kisiao yay !

# not a part of the dance club

cannot remember at all :P

Except some elements of new Jazz eg wave ( which i have learnt a bit before )

others all don't know !

xDD

But..

it's fun to learn something i don't know

<3

The most important thing is

I did not skip class today

and i even stayed back in school until 6pm !!

Eh dude, don't underestimate emo energy

Sometimes it can make people do some positive stuff too

hahahaha

( Emo queen, 2013 ) :PP

My Saturday and Sunday

 

Keep on making salads recently and Yong Wei's pic is my favourite pic

*Same ingredients anyway /__\*

After a hectic and chaotic week , it came a boring weekend

It was the second time of 'boring weekend' since the first day of class

Still,

hate lonely Saturday

Started feeling emo /__\

Went makan at pat kin pat san with Ly Heng ++after TOI test

i screwed the test again

Had my favourite Honey Milk !
One of the best thing ever ! 

Cheer a little. :)

Xuan asked me to go to midvalley and i rejected

Avoid going to places with tonnes of memoirs for now lol

I forgot about Leo nasi lemak makan trip because i have swapped my facebook account

The friend who always fetched me did not remind me this time / offered a ride

Things changed over time no ?

They used to say i will forget about them once i got new friends in UTAR

The fact is - I did not

I introduced my housemates and i got abandoned

And got abandoned once more 

Sometimes ..i think i do not need to force myself to fit in the group

I can't then i can't

They are very friendly and super nice friends

But you just simply do not belong to the group

Let's just keep it that way

:))

I talked to Seth and He did make me feel better too

Thanks Seth !

Then i went for dinner at newly opened shop in prima with Wee Sheng, Alfert , Ly heng and her room mate

Much happier

They went for Ucha after that

Heavy rain + thunder 

Alfert was 'invited' to cut hair with me lolz

but in the end i didn't cut 

Made him have to spend so much on hair 

I felt super bad :(

Before dinner

Back home and started random chat *again*

Then Derrick Ng was here from INTI ! 

Lol.

Shuwei fetched him from wangsa maju lrt and he said wangsa maju station is pretty

His first time coming here x)

2 hours trip yo

Makan with him at pat kin pat sun again ( lol)

I had honey milk one more time !

Then we went Studio89 for a drink

My first Malibu 

x)

He was forced to spare his ears for my singing later !

I felt so down and we went cheong k at ipop

We had the biggest room yay !

lol

back home at around 3.30am

Couldn't sleep at night

At around 12 or 1 i received a news from my dad that my cousin has passed away

i couldn't really accept it until i got home at 330

you know

you just..don't believe

until you open your facebook account and saw your uncles aunties heart-aching posts

We weren't that close but still

he was part of my childhood

he is my family

no?

I felt regret for unable to go back to send him the last journey

I did cried a little last night

He's a nice guy

He is funny and humorous

Whenever he is , he brings laughter to all of us..

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It's Sunday

Shuwei and Yongwei was out

Leo club stuff isn't going smoothly

My relatives are leaving

My loved ones are leaving

Friends ditched me and all these stuff

I must really thank Derrick for being crazy and making my Sat and Sun better

:))

Had lunch with Derrick, Wee Sheng and Alfret  x)

Derrick and Wee Sheng were from the same secondary school !

Ly Heng cooked today !!

And she did not forget me this time

hahahahah

Love her for that

<3 <3 <3

ABC soup , veggies with prawn and Pork

They were niceeeeee

<3

Ly Heng cooked and we needed to wash the dishes

aiya

Two people are more than enough to wash the dishes right

Lazy girls are usually pretty and i am pretty

>__<

Ly heng the supervisor lol !

Seriously she is jaga-ing if the plates are clean enough! 

Walked back and i am home now

Should start doing my works now

:))

I do not have the courage to unblock you

I miss you yeah.. but 

I have never expected this :

Now seeing someone whom i longed to see everyday.... can be such a pain.

Very pain.

开心与不开心

突然发现
其实不是现在的我不开心
是以前的我比较开心

不自觉的比较
不自觉的不开心
可是又没有办法解决

虽然之前常常被他搞的很伤心
可是伤心过后
他都会再把我变成那位很开心的人

我很讨厌自己的心情被人牵着走
我不爱被控制
可是我还是没有办法

很久没有人一直拿手机拍我
很久没有我大笑的照片
很久.....没有因为开心而笑

东西好笑 我笑

笑  不代表我快乐

因为爱

最近爱上了tumblr
也学会了什么事真正的爱

真爱不会放弃
真爱也会放弃

静静的喜欢  就够了
静静的祝福  从来不知道直接可以那么伟大

因为爱

:)

Few updates in life :)

I met a lot of awesome people in the new school 

yeah

We have many things in common such as..

BA exam aftermath 

lol

Last year, we went to Tang Shi Fu after BA exam

and this year, for BA2, we went to pat kin pat fun after exam

( lol )

Early in the Jan

We had Kimberley's birthday celebration in In House

that time i wasn't able to blend in again yet

Hahaha

i dedicated too much of time for my ex

and i didn't have the same class with them for elective

Beginning of the semester

hahaha Spencer switched to iphone5 already !

Testing her front camera in class

:P

After Chinese New year haha

we had this Reunion Dinner with Leos in Pudu

Then we went Kah Mun's house in Cheras

On the way we had Mcd ice cream as desserts too

haha

I got to know how to play 8 9 dian ><

Say Hi to Hiro !

hmmm sometime before CNY

I went to One U to hunt for some clothes with friends

Makan fish&co

had xu liu shan and uhmm

forgot.

hehe

There was one day i went to Gym and My room mate went for swimming

hahaha

we worked out together

i jogged for 3km without rest yo

Earlier uhmmm

Spencer and Kangaroo went makan with me at some nice cafe near Bukit Bintang

We went to PJU for snowflakes also

There are more..

Without photos..

Yesterday we went to Bee Won in festival city after prob and stat test

Shopping around there until 8 something

then we went to iPop to Sing K until 1am !!

They can turn emo songs to happy songs lol

shuo hao de xing fu ne xD

All K.O before 1am

hahaha.

Life has been good so far

When i am having big problems with studies

CK came my house to help me

Others are also willing to answer my questions

When i am down

i have listeners

I have funny housemates

i have a room mate who cares if i do not return by 12am

my dad called me to ask me to my chicken essence and cared if i am fit

my mom called me when she misses me telling how kns when my dad hasn't answered his calls ( haha)

My bro who checked me out once in a while

I have people who care for me

I don't understand the reason why am i still not happy

:))