Happiness

What's happiness ?

 

It's when you have an ice cream to eat

It's when you can always get chocolate to cheer your day

It's when you can walk under the sunshine

It's when you have comfy bed to sleep on

It's when you have a home

It's when you know you will never be alone

They will be always there for you . 

Your family, Your Friends , Your loved ones.

i am happy

;)

i am down

This is the second day i am crying
He has never made me carrying this sadness to the next day.

I am really hurt this time .
Or maybe i should really learn how to let go

"How to let go"?
imagine that you're holding a glass of hot water. When it hurts too much ..you don't have to learn..
you let go by yourself


My tears are worthless.
He was right though. When i cry too often over small things,
my tears get more worthless.

But...all the small things he meant..
are painful to me
will i cry if i am not pain?
will i cry if i don't love him this much?
will i be hurt this much...?

As time goes by , people change ..
tears get worthless ,
care is nowhere
heart get scars

...and be dumped alone at late night sobbing to daybreak again


i don't have this confident that we're able to be back like before
When i was this little queen pampered by him ..
he said he told himself before..once he has a gf, he will make sure she becomes the happiest woman in the world
I did feel that way but i didn't express it .

Michelle once said that i smiled sweetly when i talked about him.
Guess he will never knows...
continue thinking himself will never satisfy me..
i wonder who is the one who thinks negatively at all time

Some thoughts

"Demanding" might be the word you're using now to describe me

My mom said it stubborn.

When i want something , i must get it .

When i don't get it from my loved one when they are unable to get,

i will be sad for awhile, and get it my away 

The things i want can be anything . Sometimes it can be just just..

a cup of hot chocolate :P

I behave more like a kid when i am with people who love me..

it just comes naturally and i can't help it

I believe there's a child in everybody

Some people love cartoon , some people can't get rid of their favorite pillow,

Some people like to eat particular snacks or candy

i don't have inner child . I am the child itself. 

Get happy easily, an ice cream can make my day

get down fast too

But it doesn't mean i don't have the ability to think . ( EQ =/= IQ)

I am twenty and i have been through some real tough incidents when teens around my age don't have to endure 

No one knows. I go high profile all the time because i am just uhm purely a 100% attention seeker but uh

i know when is a no to put things under the spotlight.

I do handle my bestie's relationship problem 

People who know me , they will come to me .

If i don't have the ability to think , will you share your problem with me?

It would be a lie if i say i detest no one.

Seriously , i am not into gossiping this kind of shits

People talk about people at all time , what did A do to B and what did C do to D

i am not interested to know , unless you're in trouble

If you ever chit-chat with me, you do know however i dislike a person

I don't take a speaker and announce his/her bad points to the world

Maybe i do tell the 1 or 2 person , who are my besties

And when people ask about stuff i know and i would tell no one

You know it better if you did try to force me to tell you about anything

I always feel disgusted when my loved ones are going out with people i disliked

i think...you too will feel uncomfortable right?

But i won't stop my loved ones from going out with them

they have their freedoms

i dislike A , you don't have to follow

Please note that it is quite hard to be in my 'dislike' list

and when i dislike you , i will make sure you know

It is a childish act , i know.

i don't need to let them know for my own benefit

Of course , i wouldn't do it at workplace to avoid conflicts -_-

but for okay-okay friend, it is still better to let them know

so that he/she wouldn't ask you for meals or anything

About yesterday change of relationship...

i know i was serious

but it is also kind of way to get his attention

I want to know whether he cares...

whether he will tam me or not...

Cried to the death when he agreed.

There's a 'love' behind the world i hate you...*applicable to my best fren and boyfriend only *

Had a chat with yongwei

She said that her bf also did almost the same

We came into this conclusion that..

Break up = i want attention

     &

All guys are noobs. -__-

But he drove here at 3am and reached here around 4am yesterday although he was very tired

:)

kindness

A little story of the day .


I was heading to the water dispenser machine to fill up my 5L bottle . There was a group of youngsters heading there too , they reached the machine first as they were from block A .
*water dispenser machine is located at block A and i was from block B *

They had like , 5/6 people with 6/7 bottles to fill up . I heard a guy whispering to his group
"Shall we let the girl (me)to fill up first ? "
Then the group was giving him a big hint of  ''No".

They seemed like they were not familiar with that machine as they were dumbly adjusting the bottle position
They weren't quite sure about the price too except the guy who wanted to let me first
After waiting for them to fill up patiently , it was finally my turn.

It was just few seconds for me to fill up . Seriously, just a few seconds. maybe less than 10 seconds.
I was waiting for them for like.. 10 minutes?

Typical Malaysians. 

they did nothing wrong - they got there first.
And i found out that normally those Caucasians / people from Middle-east are more 'gentleman'

eg. getting up / down the bus . No people will let u first. Last time when i was taking the INTI bus , an African let me go first . :)

Have you ever had a long queue in the toilet?
Sometimes , people queue in front of the door , not one line at the side so that who comes in first , go first.
if i was forced to line in front of the door and it was very obvious who came in first , i would let the lady who came before me to use it first . Sometimes, people also treat me the same way. It was nice :)

We should be nice to everyone :)

blahh

 So now i am staying alone . The room suddenly becomes so spacious.. I need a room mate !

Today's Lunch 

ABC soup the other day

Cabbage soup the other other day

ABC soup + Chicken with orange sauce + mayo egg the other other other day

I sot liao !

But they taste good , look at the color of the soup teehee
:D

烦

我就快二十岁了
今天突然觉得   自己 很天真 很傻
总觉得我认识的人都很好  很照顾我

记得Form5毕业后第一次自己住宿舍
老实说我很害怕  因为你的roomate不是你能选择的
要是不和  怎么办
结果我的room mate Hazel 很好人
刚开始时是有点陌生
然后就一起疯

我们的房间有厕所
说真的  一年半里面我真的没有洗过几次
Hazel也没有说过什么
可是房间的整洁我还是会照顾
我们还会分工
有时她扫我抹地  有时她抹我扫地
我不够高擦风扇 他也会帮我 我们一起扫
我头发很长 头发会跌到很多
所以我看到了就要清

有时候我们对宿舍50 50的摆设很闷
就会一起移位子
她的位子会占很多  他有很多厨房用品
大大的箱子
架子
而我只有一张桌子和床
所以如果让他有比较大的空间放
我们的房间也看起来会比较大
他说不好意思
可是我一点都不介意

我考试的时候房间会很乱
他也会很能理解的告诉我考完试请就行了
他一忙的时候也是很乱
然后很久很久才清
我们都互相体量


来到这里 新的room mate , housemate
还有一个每个月会来一下的owner
我觉得很累


Housemate Yongwei 一直都很好
我们会一起加油想办法打扫不然auntie说我们
现在我们还有打扫时间表了
我们会交换问题谈
说真的  很幸运遇到她做我的housemate
但是 有时候owner又会找他说我的不是
夹在中间
真的是辛苦她了


一开始我以为每个人都会像我的朋友一样好人
我觉得我room mate 很友善 很好相处
他的妈妈也对我很好
也觉得owner auntie对我很好 很有礼貌

可是  我错了
不能看表面。。
我的roomate很少住这里 一个礼拜最多也是礼拜天晚上罢了
所以房间都是我在清
他的床单因为太久没睡而有很多灰尘
架子上的东西也有厚厚的灰尘
我帮他洗  和 抹
当然事先有问过她

我想买桌子 我问他ok吗
他说ok
我想买床架 我问他ok吗
他说ok ,还和我一起discuss要买怎样的
有一天我想换换摆设 我问他 他okay
他回来了 我再问她okay吗
如果不喜欢我再换
他说不会啊 他很喜欢 因为这样看起来比较大

结果，他因为这些搬去另外间房间
他说他妈妈很生气
因为我的位子比较多

他说 auntie也是有跟他妈妈说我的东西比较多
要给多一点钱
（我的东西只是多一张桌子和小柜子而已）
我去问auntie 他说他看到我男朋友上来 以为他有住 如果多一个人要加钱

他说auntie说我的头发一直掉很邋遢 怎么能和我一起住
我去问auntie 他说头发掉是难免的 我们这些头发长的人 没有办法的啦
所以要vacuum咯

auntie说他hanger少了很多
我的room mate 去说我房间有很多hanger
我有自己的hanger 而且是比较厚 全部蓝色的

有一天我room mate 去跟auntie说我穿他衣服(可能吗？）
auntie也说这个太夸张了
yongwei也说很扯

还有一次她去和owner说我把房间的头发扫去门外面就不理了
我怎么可能做这种事？
而且我打扫都连厨房和客厅一起扫

我想买床架 我问他 他ok
今天后告诉我不行 owner说会挂到墙壁
我就算了
housemate也要买床架 他就去问owner
owner说要买就买啊 房间这么样 他们不理的
理外面罢了
到最近我才知道是他妈妈不给

这些这些 很夸张的东西  我都当作不知道
auntie会说是room mate说的
room mate 会说是auntie 说的
还有很多我都不太记得了

那天还和room mate argue了一下
不过事后有道歉
我们又ok了


很累。我不知道是哪里得罪了他们要在背后中伤我
也不知道是哪里又误会
可是听说owner最近也没有说我什么了 （yw 说的）
也不知道是不是因为不想说>_<
room mate 也不是room mate le

虽然当时他当天搬走 当天才告诉我 我很气
他说房间很乱很脏，我又有比较多位子他妈妈才会叫他搬的
是有一部分很乱 我承认 因为我刚到行李还没有收拾放在那边就出去了
脏。。不是我 我才刚回来 头发那些怎么可能是我  而且都是比较靠近她床的地方脏
而且现在我头发是卷的
位子多 。。因为我有一张桌子和打横放的小柜子 （放在桌子下就不会了）


而且我的东西 一张床 一个衣橱  一张桌子 大家都有用的小柜子
会有很多吗？都是基本的需要
他只有比较高的柜子和床 和以整排乱乱的bags和files
是他东西很少 最后看起来我位子比较她的摆设 其实目的就是要把它乱乱的东西放起来不明显
所以房间看起来就很大
（我放在我哪里,他真的没有看到，最后还是我帮他放过去）
本来我是把他的床放在我那个位子的 因为那样就会看起来50 50
可是我换位了  因为我觉得他不会喜欢太靠近窗
所以把它换去里面

很累 。希望没有是非了吧。
我只是付房租 租个房间而已。

Some thoughts

This morning a puppy was abandoned outside of the shop

A white mongrel with cute, round eyes and long furs

It was having seizure where we found him

Normally when we see a dog is having seizure

First thing that will come into our minds will be DISTEMPER

Supervisor was making the call to the manager to ask for decision as today's our doctor's off day

I was very worried about it ( as it was hidden by a card-box at the parking lot)

Supervisor let me to handle the puppy with gloves and warn me not to touch others dog for that day

p/s Distemper is airborne

It wanted a lot of water..and it wanted to eat the dog snack too

it wagged its tail to me too for awhile..

But it was having slight seizure ,eye and nose discharge 

Supervisor Pei Shie took the distemper test kit and yes

positive 

We tried to feed him a/d 

And pumped it to him until Doctor Lee came from Nusa ( Globalpets main medical centre)

I helped to hold its hand so that it can be put to sleep

Yes i felt like crying again

Distemper dog - the choice will always be putting to sleep as it's air-borne

Again...another case showing how important it is to vaccinate your dog

once in a year ..not too hard right

It was the first time i helped and watched the whole process of dabao the body..

yes seriously...i couldn't bare to watch any during the beginning of the year when i was working in Nusa

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Today Robert, Crystal and Vicky's mommy and daddy came

British and french bull dogs and a boston terrier

No pichas as you know...phone gone.

They were really xingfu

The owners treat them like their own babies..

I don't know how to describe the love and bonding but yeah...

When i see them and i compare it with the abandoned puppy...

life's not always fair..

the owner maybe thought that we might be able to save the dog..

i don't know..

Dear puppy that i don't know about the name

please allow me to address you as xiaobai..

Rest in peace

If there's a next cycle of life , get a good owner or..

don't be a poor doggie anymore

:)

lalala

 Oh hey i have just permed my hair today
I wanted to dip dye ..

Whether am i satisfied?

Yes not quite .Long story .....

I promise....soon !

if it's not too expensive

:P

Semester break

Hello everyone , i am still alive and kicking !

I had deactivated my facebook and uhm maybe i am going to do it soon again to train myself to cut down the  online time

Life's better without facebook, seriously. 

i could have read few chapters of book ( novel liao hahaha) instead of reading the updates of people related or unrelated to me .

Okay the real reason of deactivating my facebook is i wanted to list myself as single after having this unhappiness with my babi baby liam ( lol )

And thank you for these people who sms-ed me / fb-msg cleo's shop to ask whether am i okay without knowing what actually happened !

(you guys really think that weiwei's life = facebook uh )

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I am back from an after-work-movie with Dr Winda , Dr Inge ,Dr Nita , Sandra , Zu and Amira. 

Vets and nurses from Nusa bestari !

Most of them were my ex-colleagues except Dr Nita and Amira , this is our first time meeting each other.

THIS IS AWESOME !

i didn't watch 'taken' but it is okay because..

taken 2 is related but not exactly related 

The adrenaline rushed for the 1.5 hours 

And now i wanna watch taken too !

*liam is everywhere uh :P*

oh recent update

Now ,i am working in Pet Resort Taman Bukit Indah

My real job is customer service but uh...

facing humans are....

boring.

LOL.

So uhm when i am free,

i help the grommers to bathe puppies and learn a little of basic grooming

oh and also help to clean the puppy rooms

Sometimes, Dr Winda will use me as vet nurse !

I am alright with that and in fact i kinda enjoy working there teehee

My supervisor Pei Shi, Cashier Xiang Ting , Customer service Guo Dong,

Grommers Carol, Pei Rong, Ah Chuan, Danny,Malikom and Dr Winda are all very helpful.

My phone dropped into the toilet bowl ( yeah now die edy) and chuan, xiang ting , guo dong all helped me to save it from the 'deep' shit

chuan opened the longkang at the back

Xiang ting helped taking the water from the swimming pool

Guo dong helped flushing

When nothing came out, Guo dong straight away took glove and helped me rescue my phone from the toilet bowl

Dr Winda accompanied me to bring doggie to the boarding area (upstairs) at night

because i was frightened by guo dong's ghost story =_=''

Thanks them so much

T__T

This bench is out of CCTV's capture :P

if you know what i mean XD

This branch is more relaxing rather than the clinic that i used to work for

Anyway...there are still a lot of things to learn 

And at here... I see healthy dogs :)

i can touch puppies too !

*clinic people were not allowed to go to puppy sale area i guess...

There's only one thing i dislike the most...

Selling livestock - the puppies

I brought a shih-tzu to a customer last night and it returns very sick today...

Another schnauzer was underweight because the owner had mistaken the doctor's words

And there's a lady

Pure breed Rottweiler , gentle and tame and smart

Comes with birthcert ( it's hard to get birthcert)

Parents were imported

one from germany one from serbia

but it's 5 months old..

Yeah you know how big does a rottweiler grow

i wanna sell it to a good owner so much

so that she won't be returned to the breeder to..breed..?

But everybody is looking for little dogs.

Lady recognized me already by the way....

:(

*and 'lady' wasn't her name anyway...she got no name...but i like to address her as lady :) 

WHY NO DOGS PICTURE?

in toilet bowl

Amitabha.

i have videos too...

Everyday i go for work , the puppies greet me with their paws on display window

cute..

my god.

School is starting soon.