i am down

This is the second day i am crying
He has never made me carrying this sadness to the next day.

I am really hurt this time .
Or maybe i should really learn how to let go

"How to let go"?
imagine that you're holding a glass of hot water. When it hurts too much ..you don't have to learn..
you let go by yourself


My tears are worthless.
He was right though. When i cry too often over small things,
my tears get more worthless.

But...all the small things he meant..
are painful to me
will i cry if i am not pain?
will i cry if i don't love him this much?
will i be hurt this much...?

As time goes by , people change ..
tears get worthless ,
care is nowhere
heart get scars

...and be dumped alone at late night sobbing to daybreak again


i don't have this confident that we're able to be back like before
When i was this little queen pampered by him ..
he said he told himself before..once he has a gf, he will make sure she becomes the happiest woman in the world
I did feel that way but i didn't express it .

Michelle once said that i smiled sweetly when i talked about him.
Guess he will never knows...
continue thinking himself will never satisfy me..
i wonder who is the one who thinks negatively at all time