For everyone i meet , i think how will my life be if each of you didn't exist in my world.

I will have never been to some places if it wasn't you ;
I will not meet some new friends or have some new gangs / be invovled ;
I will not know B if there isn't A ;
I will not start up LEO club and form a new team , and this is how each of us know each other better;
I will not have relationship with someone if you haven't introduced us ;
if there weren't you and you , i will not learn to be independent or care a little lesser (in a bad way lol)

I appreciate the existence of many people
most of the people would not care..
and the more saddening as it sounds..
Some people left after creating bonding
or being kicked away by the group he/she formed

Some people brought us all together and we took him/her for granted
did we ever feel thankful?

In UTAR
Wee Sheng brought me to the group
Kelly fetched all of us to Pavillion in the first semester
Ly heng gathered all the group together ( although always forgot me ;P )
Mr Yeoh's french class brought the gays together
Professional ethics this subjects lets me know about some new friends today

We always overlooked little tiny thing.

The worst of all , we sometime...forgot who started the ''attachment", which we call it as

Friendship.

Positive weekend :)

 

Hello !
When i got really frustrated doing research on the web , i got a getaway for myself :)
Uhmm yeah , this makes me unable to finish my tutorial again :P

Back to JB on Thursday
Went to Batu Pahat on Friday with dad and mom
Dad had a work there so yeahh
mom and i went for shopping :)

The temple is really big and pretty :))
Lazy to upload more yeahhh that's all
haha

Went makan also hmm

jalan jalan in Square one , carrefour and Batu Pahat Mall

This one mana mana pun ada , but batu pahat one is way bigger and fresher than jb. why?

Nothing much to get uhmmmm

so i got myself a pretty pair of shoes :)

A fruit juice lol

oh my dog wanna say hi !

doggie and doggie toy 

*random*

Saturday was kind of boring
thanks jeff for the day !

Yes my favourite at jamming area

where no one wants to bring me go !!

MACO

Hokkaido coffee is niceeee

Bull shit guy

This is really nice
NICEE
AND NICEEEE
OMG

hahahahahha my favourite drink now
ice drip coffee
it's better than starbucks or whatever
i swear
;)

Then i went KSL city today and got two bags back

hahaha

had also a new tea hmmm

dono what is the name already

quite pek cek also..

i saw it wrote in chinese 莱姆

then i asked the girl..what is that

the girl said..it tastes sour

then i said okayyy give me one regular

in the end ...

tates nothing special also...

okay

莱姆 = lime

wth..

=.=

Pretty

Nails <3

I am gonna dress up myself pretty pretty

make myself pretty pretty

and live pretty pretty

for the pretty pretty me !

#gotta live for myself

Being single is actually nice in a way

:))

lalala

Went Batu Pahat 

Jalan Jalan Makan Makan

Went to a pretty temple also

Lazy to upload pichas nehhh

haha.

randommmm

the moment when your mom ripped your dad's wallet for a branded bag and you have none because your CR is not having any offer, then you feel the urge to get even ._.

Then i got this 

Say hi to Black roses !

:D

#Dad was frustrated because it was so damn hard for me to get something to my liking. haha. He said yan guang tai gao.

Outing

Recently i do not check in , i do not show people my whereabout and do not really use my phone to connect to the WIFI whenever i entered the cafes and do not Facebook during dining. I don't really upload photos when i am eating pretty pretty food etc.

Yeah . Because of him . Still.

He asked me before , what do i think about checking ins .

Today, i saw this in popular .

I do not need this but uhm i bought this.

Simply because the girl is smiling so happily until i hope one day i can be like her

anyway since i bought it, i will make a good use of 'her' 

:))

I went to Festival City with Shuwei and Poh Yee just now

erm it was a shopping place for both of them but not me

but it was a place of memory...

anyway

i still went along haha

i went for shopping alone after reaching there yeahhh

They didn't really will ask me for outing unless i was there :P

more of like 'shunbian' hahaha.

it was my second time going out with them lol

Shuwei is like keep on blah-ing when she sees poh yee ._.

Last time in Midvalley it wasn't like this also

lol.

I don't know why this semester ..after the holidays

it was like

Shuwei and Yongwei have more stuff to tell to each other

Ee xuen and shu wei also got more secrets to tell to each other

Ly heng, spencer ( my old gang ) and kerou suddenly become so close to each other and im out

Wee sheng that gang also became very close with ly heng

or because i am becoming less and less naughty, outgoing and talkative

.__.

but..just let it be.

haha i don't mind

:))

 

Went Nichii and tried out a few dresses and blouses

I kinda like the design of this

The wavy part couldn't be seen clearly here hmm

RM89.90 , tapi got 50% discount !

i wanted to buy this but shu wei said that i looked short with this on 

and also asked me to look for others ..

so..

:(

I saw looney tunes booth and i went for it ._.

it is an ice cream stall ._.

RM 6.90 for one scoop  ._.

.__.

Shuwei said i have no resistance for cute stuff lol.

The ice cream seller was really cute !

Keep on giving me BIG BIG spoon of ice cream to test

hahaha

Anyway

Their durian ice cream was really , really , like seriously , super duper nice.

hahahaha.

right i still have a lot of tutorials to catch up ..

it's just..

week 2. 

:(

:))

Blogging actually helps in arranging my thoughts. We need to think and reflect to improve.

hello i am big face weiwei !

There are times i really wish that i can simply hit a restart button in my life . That i can make a better choice , think properly before every action and so on . Back to the time when my ah ma was still with me so that i get to treat her better , back to the time i met the guys that i loved , back to all the happy moments.

But i know , the game doesn't play it this way . This is how we go through "life".

In my life , i might be protected very well and might not be going through some big storms like people do. Maybe i did , but i didn't really take those as storms .Or because i didn't want to face it . When heavy blow strikes, humans, sometimes choose not to believe it - no matter how mentally strong the person is.

Recently, i have learnt quite a lot of things.

LESSON 1 DETACHED

We need to accept 'leaving' . People come and go in your life. Can you recall your tadika school mates and all your primary schoolmates? We don't. We can't. I have even forgotten some of my secondary school classmates. Who did i have the same tuition with back then ? But still, memorable people still do stay in your memory, isn't it ? I remember my exs, my best friends during secondary school and still are now , the gang who i always talked rubbish with. We might not contact each other often and most likely we do not notice that they are actually leaving our lives so that we do not feel sad over it .

My grandma has passed away and yes she is leaving me forever. I won't be able to see her and listen to her weird topics anymore. She's not going to give me ang pau this Chinese New Year or asking me to call Mcdelivery. She wouldn't brag that she can eat very fast anymore. But somehow..she's not leaving. She's in my memory.. doesn't she ? 

My favourite boy left me for good . I do miss him so very much all the time. Everytime when he appears in my memory whenever i pass by some special venues , i ask myself not to think about him. He's gone and will never come back. I miss all the moments we had . I miss the time even if we were so upset with each other but we did not give each other up. But now i need to force myself not to think , i must force myself to have him to leave my world. " He didn't love me enough to accept my bad points..true love isn't like this..he's using brain to pick a girl..not feeling..he keeps on breaking promises with me..."Somehow, he's still in the world having his own life, but he is already long gone in my world ..isn't it ?

I do not like people to leave me just like that. One of my favourite friendshere..the gay pedo in UTAR also transferred to another uni. or simply.. i do not like people to leave me first. I am selfish.

No matter what..we still need to accept what we do not like because we have no choice. I don't like to accept these anymore - so it's better off having not much attachment , so there will be less detachment for me to bear :)

Lesson 2 Low on EQ

Meowww

(It was eye liner...yeah i was bored. ) 

I wasn't used to tell people about my feelings or anything that happened on me . I would only tell people generally on what happened like "yeahh i broke up.." without any story telling. I do not like to expose my feeling to people , be it my boyfriend or my mom. The most i did for my feeling is by blogging - which normally only happened when the storm has passed. I do tell 3 friends about what i feel to ease my level of depressions because i know i will have some serious syndromes if i don't.

Soon, i was so getting used to vent my emotion on the internet. It wasn't good and i notice it and still on my way to get rid of it . Sometimes i will just pick a chatbox of someone and vent it there. This sounds very silly and childish but it really helps sometimes.

My emotion quotient is real low . EQ at work is high , but when i am not working on something, i am so dead. I am 'dangerous'. Over the years, i know this has been improved but still not good enough. When i am forced for something in a hard way ,i will get down again. The difference between now and before is the matter of time - how soon i can pick myself up again :(

It was many many months during secondary school , 1 year+ for an incident which haunts me so much and 20days now

I hope i can be okay . I know i am on my way. It's alright to trip a little.

#just a post for thoughts sharing :)

Brain vs Heart

心灰意冷 best describes my feeling now .

You know the feeling that when you met someone and got together happily

you would want it to be the last one

I really had this feeling for him before.

Then i got into it like seriously,

which in the end what i got was just a word 'Naive"

Some people use brain to pick a lover

not feeling

too rational is the word when my friends talked about him

what makes me feeling disappointed the most is

People will only love your sunny side . Like , seriously . Who will really love you for who you are ? How many percent of the population will stay by if you have huge problem or some illness ?

You struggled to be honest and then ?

They love your perfect sides

They don't like you giving them negative feelings like anger , sadness or bitter gourd face

I knew this long ago.

I just didn't expect he is one of them.