update x)

Hello all !

I love my eyes in this picture muahaha

If you can spot the difference, yes , i applied some eyeliners and mascara onto the layer of the panda eyes.

Bitching about A and B

*title inspired by eric*

I wouldn't claim that my English is good

I have mistakes too just that they are lesser

My vocabulary is limited ever since i bid farewell to Form 5

i was quite obsessed with grammar and vocab in Form 5 for 1119

Bombastic words ! 

Kept on reading and reading 

Okay la it was because of Puan Tarifa 

I actually do miss her :(

Then , i have this basic professional writing which makes me yawn at all time

Error identifications

grammar nazi !

I can do well in every exercises in few minutes

One mid term is equal to one usual practice , in 30 minutes time !

I.SCREW.IT

Sigh

I don't really have confidence for the final because...

I still not quite sure about the structure of memo report

Lecturer always said that my sentences are too flowering

and asked me to use simple words

K.I.S.S concept

Keep it short and simple

Mehhhh wish me luck

K i know this is getting boring here WHATEVER.

About public speaking,

I emo ==

It was a full coursework subject and lecturer revealed only half the assessment

 I got B for the first 50%

Maybe the same for the rest too

#Forever meant to 'B'... 

(kok wei xing, 2012)

I want A , i want 4.0 to help raising my previous CGPA laaaaa

i know i sound like a psycho hoarding for A

whatever it is

i wanttttttttttt

give me some exam luck , lai lai lai.

28 November

I went to Korean Village in Ampang for Uncle Jang

Dak-Galbi , + spicy

Love it

It was spontaneous.

One day , i woke up from the nap and it was already dinner time !

i asked Ah bian for Uncle Jang , He on

I asked Ee Xuen to go along, He on too

mehhh , i love spontaneous people to siao with me

:D

Oh wait , i have a lot a lot of kimchi that night

kept on asking for more and more

When i was eating,

The food attendant actually winked at me 

lol

I love this weird sauce + edible onion for me + green leaf  for rabbit :P

November 29, 2012

This is more like me. ;x

Feeling a little sulky today and went to some random places

I went to KLCC candyliscious to get some gifts for friends

Yeahhhh it's Christmas !

I wanted to get these

The price tag was RM3 each and when i went to the cashier for 3,

It was RM39

Wrong tags, but huh,

I didn't buy them la of course !

Feeling so geram and i went to Bisou to get cute cupcakes for friends instead

Then, i still WANT chocolate

So i went back to candyliscious

hahaha

So i got this

It was RM27 for each packet and i knew it was kinda pricey but uh...

the feeling deepens ! 

When Shawn told me it was merely about 3 dollars in America what the fuck what the fuck

I could get 3 packets with that price !

Sigh.

C'est la vie.....always

Then i passed by Famous Amos,

Their gifts are prettier and cheaper

Sien.

Reindeers in KLCC

pretty die !

Hohoho ,

jingle bell jingle bell !

Oh santa baby, hurry down my chimney tonight !

时间可以带走伤心
也会把甜蜜给冲走


难过 所以哭了
哭了  换不回以前的甜蜜
只会得到眼泪很廉价这个事实

一难过就会出现的那个人不见了
时不时就会whatsapp我他人在哪里的人也不见了
每天睡觉前一定会打给我的他在哪里
就算通了电话  也没有办法聊到我睡着了
知道我难过了 也不会哄我了


我应该适应
还是在一切都甜美的时候留下最美的回忆？

I am 20 years old !

Taken in Ben's
find this meaningful on this special day
what's the one thing about yourself that you'd like to improve on?

It was my birthday yesterday !

at 12am ,

Ninja, Kelly, Banana, Ly Heng, Ke Jo, Alfret and Wee Sheng came to my doorstep for a birthday surprise !

Too bad i was sending Ee Xuen back at that time

Hahahaha

But still managed to surprise me !

(As there were many of them at the doorstep )

:D

Coincidentally, they bought the cake i wanted from delectable !

Lol i wanted to buy one for Stephen's birthday ( which is the next day after mine )

Not because he liked it

but i wanted to eat it

:P

They purposely make the candles like that

haha

i am awesome

Yes there are a lot of babifunnyhilariousOhmygoodness shots that i don't think you wanna see them all

hahahahah

Teehee i am happy

Yes please look at me haha

一号佳丽！

Ben's

The next day, i went for present-hunting for myself in KLCC after my assignment

I wanted Ninja to accompany me then later i decided to have my own adventure 

( i was very emo because stephen was still out of sight ><)

Then Ninja told me she needed to go to KLCC to shop too

then we met there after an hour of shopping on my own!

I had two bags in mind

One Everlast and one Nike

I couldn't make the decision so i waited Ninja to arrive so that at least i can have some opinions

i was texting shuwei all the way for opinions lol

and she said she felt weird for texting her own number

( yes in case you don't know, my sim card is in the toilet bowl)

There are two things that would never change although i have turned 20 years old !

1. Pattern

2. Fatness

>__< 

Belanja myself a good meal on Birthday :)

Ninja was drinking mushroom soup yg amat mahal 

Went to Memory Lane for adventure after exploring the way to get to pavillion from KLCC

Seriously, i had tonnes of fun in Candyliscious !

Ninja: jiayou buddy

Really zha si wo for the creativity hahaha

It is one of the place that no matter how many times did i go

I still find it amazing

XD

Santa, make flower like this for me please

:P

Ninja made me damn paiseh !

From advisor to buyer

>__<

i was still unable to make decision though (lol =_=)

Dear came d, Ninja straight "shoo"一声就不见了

Asked her to watch movie with us...

donwant

Asked her to sit down and eat ice cream with us..

donwant

Stephen offered a ride to send her home

Donwant..

.__.

Watched skyfall with dear + exchanged gift 

:)

This year , i purposely removed my birth date to play low profile :P

I was surprised that there are people who actually remember my birthday

Maybe not all of the gang remember, but they are willing to celebrate the day with me

The sincerity outweighs everything

:D

This might be the warmest birthday i ever had

Thanks guys

I am at loss of words to deliver the thank you message

If you see this,

Please know that i appreciate every effort you did 

For people who actually tried to call me.sorry that i was unable to answer..

(simcard in toiletowl lol )

arhhh this emo zombie queen is happy to have you guys

I love you

xoxo

For more pichas : https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.4794756066252.194825.1216440523&type=3

:)

Happiness

What's happiness ?

 

It's when you have an ice cream to eat

It's when you can always get chocolate to cheer your day

It's when you can walk under the sunshine

It's when you have comfy bed to sleep on

It's when you have a home

It's when you know you will never be alone

They will be always there for you . 

Your family, Your Friends , Your loved ones.

i am happy

;)

i am down

This is the second day i am crying
He has never made me carrying this sadness to the next day.

I am really hurt this time .
Or maybe i should really learn how to let go

"How to let go"?
imagine that you're holding a glass of hot water. When it hurts too much ..you don't have to learn..
you let go by yourself


My tears are worthless.
He was right though. When i cry too often over small things,
my tears get more worthless.

But...all the small things he meant..
are painful to me
will i cry if i am not pain?
will i cry if i don't love him this much?
will i be hurt this much...?

As time goes by , people change ..
tears get worthless ,
care is nowhere
heart get scars

...and be dumped alone at late night sobbing to daybreak again


i don't have this confident that we're able to be back like before
When i was this little queen pampered by him ..
he said he told himself before..once he has a gf, he will make sure she becomes the happiest woman in the world
I did feel that way but i didn't express it .

Michelle once said that i smiled sweetly when i talked about him.
Guess he will never knows...
continue thinking himself will never satisfy me..
i wonder who is the one who thinks negatively at all time

Some thoughts

"Demanding" might be the word you're using now to describe me

My mom said it stubborn.

When i want something , i must get it .

When i don't get it from my loved one when they are unable to get,

i will be sad for awhile, and get it my away 

The things i want can be anything . Sometimes it can be just just..

a cup of hot chocolate :P

I behave more like a kid when i am with people who love me..

it just comes naturally and i can't help it

I believe there's a child in everybody

Some people love cartoon , some people can't get rid of their favorite pillow,

Some people like to eat particular snacks or candy

i don't have inner child . I am the child itself. 

Get happy easily, an ice cream can make my day

get down fast too

But it doesn't mean i don't have the ability to think . ( EQ =/= IQ)

I am twenty and i have been through some real tough incidents when teens around my age don't have to endure 

No one knows. I go high profile all the time because i am just uhm purely a 100% attention seeker but uh

i know when is a no to put things under the spotlight.

I do handle my bestie's relationship problem 

People who know me , they will come to me .

If i don't have the ability to think , will you share your problem with me?

It would be a lie if i say i detest no one.

Seriously , i am not into gossiping this kind of shits

People talk about people at all time , what did A do to B and what did C do to D

i am not interested to know , unless you're in trouble

If you ever chit-chat with me, you do know however i dislike a person

I don't take a speaker and announce his/her bad points to the world

Maybe i do tell the 1 or 2 person , who are my besties

And when people ask about stuff i know and i would tell no one

You know it better if you did try to force me to tell you about anything

I always feel disgusted when my loved ones are going out with people i disliked

i think...you too will feel uncomfortable right?

But i won't stop my loved ones from going out with them

they have their freedoms

i dislike A , you don't have to follow

Please note that it is quite hard to be in my 'dislike' list

and when i dislike you , i will make sure you know

It is a childish act , i know.

i don't need to let them know for my own benefit

Of course , i wouldn't do it at workplace to avoid conflicts -_-

but for okay-okay friend, it is still better to let them know

so that he/she wouldn't ask you for meals or anything

About yesterday change of relationship...

i know i was serious

but it is also kind of way to get his attention

I want to know whether he cares...

whether he will tam me or not...

Cried to the death when he agreed.

There's a 'love' behind the world i hate you...*applicable to my best fren and boyfriend only *

Had a chat with yongwei

She said that her bf also did almost the same

We came into this conclusion that..

Break up = i want attention

     &

All guys are noobs. -__-

But he drove here at 3am and reached here around 4am yesterday although he was very tired

:)