Forgotten

I have read an old friend's blog and her blog title was :

Thinking is mentally taxing. Don't think

and i find this line quite interesting :)

i found out that it has been quite some time since my last peace in mind 

i wasn't able to 'think' rationally but only pasts , good memoirs, bad memoirs

i was letting all the negatives to flow aggressively in my brain like the water falls

making myself to sit on the emotional roller coaster with endless track

going up and down, up and down , up and down..until the breathing seems impossible

why am i torturing myself like this?

I broke up .

Breaking up is merely a process in life. All good things come to an end.

It is normal .

Oh how much time did i actually waste on tears, being sad, and emo-ing?
when i have more important things to do?

The relationship has expired , 'poof' , gone.
One day pass of the wonderland is over.
i was dwelling on it and making myself suffocating ( to him too)
i was seeing it as the end of world , maybe
or simply a feeling of lost that makes me even lost :S

We are not longer in contact..missing him somehow
or i am actually missing the happy me


I couldn't agree more on this

The more beautiful the memoirs are , the more empty will you feel, when everything is gone.

We always overlooked small small tiny little thing
talking , meeting ...all are taken as granted
Not only in relationship...
do you appreciate your own breathing?

it's really time to say good bye.

Back to the 'more important ' thing

I have a paper in January and i couldn't make myself to understand the book
the clock is still ticking and i am still wasting time
when things remind me of him , i am K.O
Being lifeless for the whole day and picking myself up again

Then, i start to question myself

What is the most important thingy in my life?

Dad and mom.

what am i actually doing now for them?
failing their Expectations.


I think i have been being too mercy to myself

hey bitch,

Hopefully today is the last day of your rubbish.
It's time to grow up.
Nothing makes people to grow mature faster than incidents.

It still stings.
but uhm, gotta get myself going.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

Favourite song of all time.

:))